I cannot escape even in sleep. My dreams betray me. I feel like a tube of glass. I feel like there's a mark, a fingerprint which I so much want to get rid of. The problem is that the mark is on the inside of the glass.

When I was very young, I liked to watch shows on crime and investigation... I always thought that the criminals were silly for leaving their fingerprints around. So I would pretend to be a thief and go round the house 'stealing' things. The trick was, in my mind, to handle the objects so lightly so that my fingerprints would not appear on the object. It wasn't until much later when my friend told me that any contact would leave a fingerprint. I think she was laughing when she told me...

Any contact will leave a mark.
How true...
The more I think about it, the more I feel that it was so unnecessary. I hate it when she reminds me of things like that. It serves no purpose at all... I hate it when we connect. Or when I feel that we connect. Why remind me of things that have past?